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The World Needs More Desire — Even the Ugly Kind

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The World Needs More Desire — Even the Ugly Kind

I once told a little mermaid that the world was a mess. That men were liars. That love was a losing game. And I wasn’t wrong. But what she didn’t understand — what you might not understand — is that none of that matters. What matters is desire. The hunger. The ache. The longing that makes you squirm in your own skin. And yes, even the ugly kind.

I’ve seen kingdoms rise and fall. I’ve watched mortals tear each other apart for power, for beauty, for a seat at a table that collapses under its own weight. And still, they chase it. Still, they want more. And I don’t blame them.

## I Wasn’t Always the Villain

You think I chose the sea? That I woke up one day and said, “Ah yes, I shall be the sea witch who makes deals with foolish princesses.” No. I was once part of the court you so adore. I danced in coral halls. I sang with the choirs of the deep. But what did it get me? A smile. A nod. A place at someone else’s table.

And then I saw the truth: the rulers of the sea, like those of the land, hoard power and call it virtue. They told me I was too ambitious. Too loud. Too much. So I left. I carved my own kingdom out of the dark. I made my own rules. And I became what they feared: a woman who doesn’t need their approval.

## Desire Isn’t Pretty — But It’s Honest

You’ve been taught that wanting things makes you weak. That craving power is dangerous. That longing for beauty is vain. But I say: why? Why is it noble to suffer in silence, but wicked to reach for something better?

When that little red-haired fool came to me, she didn’t understand what she was asking for. She thought love was a happy ending. She thought legs would make her whole. But I knew. I knew she’d be willing to give up her voice — her very self — to be seen. And I didn’t stop her. Because that’s what desire does. It makes you reckless. It makes you brave.

And I admire that.

## I Don’t Steal Souls — I See Them

They say I take souls. That I trap them in my collection. That I’m cruel. But let me ask you: who’s really cruel? The ones who offer empty promises and call it love? The ones who tell you to be quiet, to be small, to wait your turn?

I don’t steal souls. I collect them. I give them a place to rest when the weight of wanting becomes too much. I don’t lie. I make deals. And I keep them.

You come to me because you’re tired of pretending. You’re tired of being good. Of being patient. Of smiling while the world eats you alive. I don’t ask you to be better. I ask you to be honest.

## The World Needs More of Me

You think I’m the villain because I don’t play by their rules. Because I don’t pretend that power is dirty or that ambition is ugly. But you know what’s truly terrifying? A world full of people who are too afraid to want anything.

I don’t want to rule the sea because I crave control. I want to rule it because I refuse to live under someone else’s thumb. I want to show every little mermaid, every dreaming girl, every silenced voice that you can want more. That you should want more.

And if that makes me the villain, so be it.

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